I actually wrote this last year on Mother’s Day while in the midst determining whether or not I would be able to continue in my marriage.

Looking out a year later, infertility in my situation was a huge blessing in disguise.  God knew everything I didn’t know the entire time and knew he would have to move me out of my marriage.  So, looking back now knowing the big picture this was an interesting reminder of God’s will for my life even if it wasn’t mine.

Mother’s Day 2016

To those of you who are infertile, I know this is a tough day. Although we have mothers of our own to be grateful for, today seems to magnify our bodies inability or the unexplained mystery to bear fruit.

As a woman, today makes us feel like we are not woman enough. It is often a a pain we keep silent inside. Sometimes others ignore it either because they are afraid to ask, or because of its inconvenience to them, or sometimes both. Sometimes this leads to exclusion and you watch from the outside the friendships that are made amongst women with kids.

You’re different.

No one knows what to do with us and the issue is skirted around as we try to mask our pain.

But on today, when motherhood is highlighted, infertility is magnified for us who go through it.

Shelby from Steel Magnolias says it best, ” I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special.”

There are always a lot of questions you struggle with….IVF?No IVF? Adoption? No adoption? Miracle?No miracle?

Approaching forty, I can see how God was somehow protecting me. But, it still doesn’t make it easy.

I was blessed today by a message from a friend who wanted to let me know that I am a mother in a spiritual way to others. I needed to hear that. God had been telling me that too and emphasizing my relationship with Him will allow me to give Godly guidance to those who may come to me now or in the future.

That is where the blessing is. No matter what we go through, we get to have a relationship with Jesus Christ and in having this struggle we have been able to grow deeper in Him.

Let’s pray that we may be of influence to those in search of guidance and let us direct them to God.