Every time I see a snake I want to pick it up. I tell myself that it probably isn’t poisonous by the shape of its head. But, I talk myself out of it just in case.
I think the fact that it could be deadly and dangerous lures me to want to grab it, conquer it, and prove that I’m not afraid of it. But, if it is a dangerous snake and I try to conquer it, I will actually be succumbed by my stupidity.
Wisdom is actually what proves victory. Wisdom conquers. Wisdom doesn’t have to prove anything. It just knows.
The past two weeks I have been wrestling with a sin of the heart. A small serpent that seems to be growing by the day. I don’t like it. I plead for God to remove it. Eradicate it. Yet, when the opportunity comes for me to grab at it as if in my power alone I can handle it, it chokes my heart. It entangles my mind and it causes me to respond in the flesh without prayer and without the best interest of another. Why? Because I’m feeding it with a selfish, bitter, prideful, competitive root in my heart.
How terribly I’m failing.
I can see a pattern though to what triggers this battle. So what is the Lord wanting to teach me?
1. How to respond in a different way.
2. How to respond Jesus’ way.
3. Stay quiet.
4. Focus on the mission.
5. Fix your eyes on Jesus.
6. Be Rebekah…Draw water from only my well.
7. I needed your heart to be softened some more so I can plow up the bitter roots. It’s time to really deal with this.
8. To make you so desperate to be rid of it that you will draw closer than you have before.
Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
I don’t want to stumble because of pride. I don’t want to bring destruction upon me. Help me humble and lean into you. Mold me and refine me into a Christ like image.