This morning I was looking back in my journal to previous entries. Lately, I have been rolling over in my mind how awkward this holding pattern in my life is.
It’s interesting how engrained planning out our life is.
Be a good person.
Make good grades.
Go to college, so you can get a good job.
Do good work, so you can buy a nice house.
Be a good wife, so you can have a good marriage.
Follow these steps and it will all be good.
Although, these are all good things and it is good to have a plan, the reality is so different when God has a different plan for you.
I think plans should have this disclaimer: Be flexible and attentive to God’s guidance. Walk out that plan, but be ready to step off the beaten path when he calls you. Don’t get so fixated on this plan that you aren’t allowing God to take you where he really wants you. Have your Bible handy, this is a hike.
For me being in the MIdST means I’m out in the water in a boat. I can see the shoreline, the people, the buildings lined up along the coast, and just where I’m suppose to dock.
And then, suddenly, a mist has formed and all that I was seeing is now hidden from me. Why? Because I’m so focused on the land I’m trying to reach, that I take my eyes off of God. I’m rowing really hard to get to that dock that I think I’m suppose to get to and now I can’t even see it or how to get there.
What I’m needing to do is put my back towards land, relax, and be excited about being in the presence of God as he rows me to wherever he wants me. He has a GREAT plan and wants to surprise me.

Luke 5:4-6
When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water and let down the nets for a catch.” Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.” When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break.
To God be the Glory